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George Kalantzis's avatar

Dang . I’ll comment because this is a brilliant piece. Although it’s 5am and I’m opening an airport and haven’t had coffee yet

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

glad I could start your Sunday off right

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Loreth Mills's avatar

Painfully beautiful. I feel every word. Please understand you’re doing powerful work.

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

thank you so much

I know it’s a bit morbid but I figure so is life

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Loreth Mills's avatar

Yes, so is life. I’ve written so many things that I hesitate to publish because the world is either toxically positive or toxically negative. Most days, I’m just numb. And then I see strength like this article and it is empowering.

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Jack Jackson's avatar

Lots of likes, but no comments. Granted, it was a perfect piece, but I think it was so powerful as to stop all us suicidal writers in our tracks.

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

Thank you for saying this Jack, means an awful lot

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T. D. Wolf's avatar

Every paragraph is an essay in its own. Then the Audioslave song.

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

I miss Chris Cornell something awful

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C.M. Carrigy's avatar

I counter with this...

https://youtu.be/SJUhlRoBL8M?si=MtXVWiu2Hu9Mi_0c

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

Hahhaha

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Ana Bosch's avatar

Hahahahaha. I sustain the best of us make jokes even in the pits of hell.

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Giles Kelvage's avatar

Now there is a meaningful publication!

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

Thank you Giles

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Shayne Rich's avatar

This is gold

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

thank you - in a strange way it was almost fun to write

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Shayne Rich's avatar

loving suicidal writers is a hobby

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Ana Bosch's avatar

I am just generally glad that you decided to swim back to shore, Sudana. Carrot and stick ;)

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

So am I Ana (at least today I am)

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George P Farrell's avatar

There are a lot of blind corners in life. You never know what is just around the next corner. And you'll never know unless you live to see it.

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Tor Rose's avatar

this is so Bukowski's, "a sickness?" coded <3

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

Wow, that might be the best compliment ever

Thank you

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Joe's avatar

A beautiful punch in the soul of this life of pain and joy we’ve lived as shades of the past veil the present of our presence to free the wrought of iron’s ache with light of Mrs. Doubtfire hiding Williams’ shadows.

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Vince Roman's avatar

So beautiful

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

Thank you Vince

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HANNAH's avatar

I can’t stop thinking about this

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Darlene Carroll's avatar

Never stop your pen from bleeding ink. Reaching a reader with this forcible weaving of your words.

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Frederic Poag's avatar

I think for Camus it's not so much about imagining Sisyphus happy as in joyous, which is absurd, it's this notion of rationality that modernity pushes on us.

That's the angst that we feel. The misfits who can't go along with the program. Camus' point was we overlay a false notion of rationality onto Existence which is essentially irrational. We give it a false rationality to give ourselves a false comfort. "Everything happens for a reason" kind of shit.

Can we find meaning in the melancholy? The absurd choice isn't to see Sisyphus happy but to keep pushing the boulder in spite of the melancholy.

There's a quote attributed to Heidegger I really like: 'Since we can never hope to understand why we're here, if there's even anything to understand, the individual should choose a goal and pursue it wholeheartedly, despite the certainty of death and the meaninglessness of action.'

Can we push on just out of spite? Can we transcend our own darkness and melancholy to achieve a state that's wholly driven by ourselves? Can Sisyphus take the act of being cursed, and pushing this rock as his own at some point? For Camus it's Sisyphus finding a happiness in a self-driven purpose even while cursed.

Is happiness and meaning contained within the self-driven purpose beyond serotonin and dopamine levels?

I hope so. At least it's what I've been pursuing for most of my life.

Great piece. You referenced a lot of my favorite authors. Your writing style is very evocative.

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

Thank you so much Han. He’s one of my favorite songwriters, brilliant soul

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Sudana Krasniqi's avatar

Perfect for a Sunday

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